So, I have a tendency of using song lyrics for titles and such. This particular one if from “The Chain” by Ingrid Michaelson. Ah, I suppose it’s now time to explain this particular title, isn’t it? Well, you see, I have this friend, we’ll call him Demitri, and he and I dated for two years, which is a long time to know someone. So now that I’m at college, and he’s living at home and commuting to another local college, we don’t see each other a lot. Mind you, he lives about twenty minutes from where I go to college anyways, so it’s not that hard to see each other. Well, every Saturday he’s on my campus with his friends, and every Saturday I ask him if he can take some time and come see me while he’s here, and every Saturday he doesn’t. Mind you, he comes down to see them, but won’t make trips to see me. He promises that he’ll come see me, and then he doesn’t (hence the title of this lovely post, obviously). I don’t know what he expects. He says he misses me and wants to see me and he says all these things and never does anything about it. It was a problem while we were dating, and I guess I shouldn’t have expected anything less now that we’re not. Sometimes I feel like I should just let this all go, but I really don’t want to lose him… I think I already might have. Oh depressing, isn’t it? I don’t like thinking about this, but once I start it just won’t go away. Then come the problems… emotional eating!
The infamous cause-> effect. Problem -> FOOD!!! reactions.
I really don’t want to eat my feelings, it sucks a lot, because you feel bad, eat a pint of Ben and Jerrys and then feel insanely guilty for putting that many calories and all that sugar and fat into your system, right? I mean, how are you supposed to feel beautiful when every time you get really emotional, good or bad, you just reach for the nearest piece of unhealthy junk you can cram into your system?
Alas, this is a problem I’ve always dealt with. I really wish I could change this behavior, and I’m trying so hard. Tips? Comments? Questions? Post them!
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